Jenny Crocker 

It’s been a while since I’ve written here. I guess I just keep coming back to the same feelings I’ve had for almost two years now. I miss my son. It hurts more than anything I’ve ever experienced and more than anything I could ever begin to explain. I’m angry and frustrated. I’m sad and disappointed. It just hurts. 

It happened last year and I can feel it happening again this year where from about September (when we had our first ultrasound) to December (when we lost him) I have this overwhelming feeling of…just sadness. I’m not really sure how to explain it. It’s like this constant feeling of something’s wrong and something’s missing but during these months it’s amplified….a lot…and there isn’t anything I can do about it. 

Anyway I feel like I’m just a broken record so that’s why I haven’t been writing much. But I said I was going to use this blog for happy things as well and not just a sad outlet but a happy one too. 

I love to bake. Mostly cuz I love to eat my creations ;). My wonderful husband bought be a kitchen aid mixer for my birthday just recently and so I’ve been looking for any exscuse I can get to use it. 

I’ve made chocolate chip cookies of course, and mashed potatoes and yesterday I made my first ever from scratch French bread. 

It sounded like it was working pretty hard on the dough but it worked like a charm! 

Then I let it rise for about an hour and like magic it was doubled in size 🙂 

Then I got to actually use my rolling pin for its intended purpose for the first time and rolled out two big rectangles and then rolled those into loaves. 

I then let it rise again and like magic they too doubled in size 🙂 

At this point I’m thinking this is waaaaay too much bread just to have with our stew for dinner for my husband and I and a 4 year old, but it was too late to turn back now 🙂 

Unfortunately I forgot to take a picture after I took them out of the oven but here is the loaf we didn’t eat for dinner last night. 

All in all it was pretty good. The crust was a little crunchier than I would have preferred but otherwise I’d say it turned out pretty good for my first time making bread! 😀 


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